Most people reading this probably know that I’m an amateur musician. I’ve been doing it for about a year now, and I’ve made a lot of progress with playing bass guitar and singing. I’ve written a number of songs, and even have a couple of singles out under the band name Dichotomous. (I wasn’t alone doing those singles, but I’m the only one who’s still involved.)
Getting motivated to practice vocals and bass, and to work on learning guitar as I’ve been doing for a couple of months now, isn’t always easy. I don’t have a private space where I can practice. Everything’s in the corner of my living room. That means if my kids or husband are home, I can’t really practice at all, because distractions and noise and such. When they aren’t home, sometimes I have so many other things to do that I keep putting off practicing until it’s too late because one of them gets here before I can get started. The location of my equipment also means having to rearrange part of the living room before I can practice, and sometimes I just don’t feel like doing that.
And sometimes, to be honest, it’s hard to motivate myself because I get sad about the music. I wasn’t the only member of Dichotomous when the singles were recorded and released. The circumstances that led to that changing were painful. Sometimes practicing and playing those songs helps, but sometimes it brings back that pain. Hopefully some day, it won’t.
Meanwhile, I just need to push myself to keep trying. I’ve been working on rearranging my schedule to give myself more time to work on learning guitar and to practice what I’m already able to do. I’m trying to sort out what needs to be done on the rest of the songs for which I’ve written lyrics, because I would like to finish those at some point. Sooner or later, I’ll get there.