Wow… It’s been a while since I posted! As I said back in August, my husband and I moved to a new apartment. That took a lot of time and energy, and things hadn’t quite gotten settled yet when I got into a car accident. I wasn’t hurt, but my car needs quite a bit of work. I’ve also started a new part-time job that takes only a few hours a day…but then takes over two hours in commuting time.
So I haven’t been keeping up with writing and blogging as much as I could have. And that’s okay. Sometimes life comes along, and if you read back through these posts, you’ll see that life comes along quite a bit for me.
To be honest, discouragement has also played a role. I’m not seeing the book sales I would like, and that’s hard, especially when I know my publisher is losing money because of it. Even though I’ve been getting things published for almost nine years now, I still haven’t gotten the hang of promoting myself and my books, and it seems like every time I start to get a handle on it, everything changes.
But more than that, the ideas dried up. I got caught in the trap, under both this pen name and my adult romance one, of writing what publishers wanted me to write, or what readers asked for, instead of following my heart. The resulting books were…well, frankly, they were bad. When a writer writes from the head instead of the heart, it shows. Of course, that didn’t help my sales either.
This year, I’ve had two books rejected. There were valid reasons for the rejections, and I don’t have a problem with that, but rejection is discouraging. And the publisher that rejected them has asked that I only send them contemporary fiction (the two books they rejected were urban fantasy). If you look at my currently available books, you’ll see that contemporary fiction isn’t a problem for me, but it isn’t the *only* thing I want to write. And naturally, because my brain is what it is, as soon as I was asked not to send any more urban fantasy, those were the ONLY plots showing up in my brain.
My priorities as an author have gotten skewed. Instead of putting the writing first, I’ve been putting publication and sales first, and that hasn’t done me any favors. So I’m revamping my priorities. I’m writing for myself first, and not even thinking about getting published. That means it might be a while before readers see anything new from me, other than short stories I might post on this blog or my Free Reads page. But it’s the right thing for me to do. I need, at least figuratively speaking, to go back to the days before I was published, when I wrote because I WANTED to, not because I HAD to.
I plan to post one blog post a week. Sometimes it might be just a short excerpt from one of my books. And I plan to spend some time getting reacquainted with my imagination and seeing what happens.